This song is my most emotional, and I've gotten several comments about how its made listeners feel. I wrote and recorded this piece in just a few hours late at night after work. I believe I initially sat down to finish working on ‘well you should know it all’. Sometimes, these creative works happen best unplanned. I have been living unhappy for a few years now, unsure where I want to go, afraid I've put myself on a completely wrong path, and feeling like I've let my old self down. In school, I worked so hard to avoid ending up in the place I currently find myself. This song captures how I feel, and I believe it has so many levels to its depth for me. I hope that someone listening can understand these meanings, or perhaps find their own - however, I also hope that you DON'T relate because that would be sad. But at least we might be in the same boat.
I used some piano in this track, which I am very unfamiliar with playing, but the simple melody that I discovered is one of my favorites. It was designed to capture the feelings when you're falling behind and you feel lonely where you are. As if the piano is echoing into an empty room.
To prove my point even further, I want to point you towards a quote from perhaps one of the greatest lyricists of our generation "So I got wasted like all my potential/And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I have a lot of regrets about that/I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere/ Fell behind all my classmates, and I ended up here/ Pouring out my heart to a stranger" (Taylor Swift)
To be a creative is to understand the creative process, to understand the world around you and the world that you make, and most importantly, to have full confidence that your creations will happen only when they are intended to. As I said, these past few years have been challenging. It becomes harder and harder to push through each day when you're working yourself to the ground with no end in sight. But it is also this experience that has pushed me over that speed bump and propels me towards sharing my music without continuing to be fearful of the outcome. Perhaps this is all meant to happen for the sake of creating something meaningful, who knows. We'll see pretty soon I suppose.
Thank you for supporting me this far, or for taking the time to discover my website, and I promise we will be in touch soon. :)
Caroline