This is my very first fully produced & recorded song, so it will always be special to me. This song is inspired by my tendency to overthink to point where it consumes me, and takes over my viewpoint on every day things. Nothing really makes sense anymore and I spend a lot of time in my own head rather than the real world.
This happens to a lot of people, and it usually takes someone else to help pull them back to reality. Or, at least, it does so in my own experiences.
This song is a letter to a loved one, asking them to stick around even though you're in a crazy state at the moment. Being close to someone who is in that state of mind can be exhausting and sad. The song is an apology, and an ask for help.
Of course, the added layer of this song is that the character of this storyline is perfectly aware of their behavior and attitude, but unable to get themselves better.
My direct inspiration for this song came from the anxiety and panic I feel when I wake up in the late afternoon/dusk of the day, and it is cloudy and strange. Maybe you wake up and nobody is home anymore, the house is silent, and you feel as if you woke up in a whole separate dimension. To me, that is how it feels when I begin to overthink. Nothing is exactly right anymore, I feel like I am in unfamiliar territory, and I get worried, scared, an everything bad.
I then worked to develop this very theme into a small EP, exploring the emotions I feel when I am in this state.